Week 2 — Prague
This week, to put it bluntly, was not productive.
I disregarded the tasks I knew I needed to complete. I tolerated distraction and sin, excusing it as “fun.” I told myself: What’s the harm in staying up late? What’s the harm in entertaining useless conversations?
I didn’t do the niche research.
I didn’t watch the course videos.
I was inconsistent — fully aware of it.
Football & Energy
On the positive side, I got back into football — something I’ve genuinely missed.
We played five-a-side: three teams of five, ten-minute matches rotating. Even though I was wearing shoes that were too small and had zero grip, my touch felt sharp for someone who hadn’t played in years. My fitness was acceptable for that level, especially with ten-minute breaks every twenty minutes.
I’m highly anticipating Germany. Being back in a competitive team environment is something I need.
Throughout this week, I’ve felt an overflow of energy — almost euphoric at times. It’s difficult to explain. I feel like I want to do everything, talk to everyone, experience everything.
But I’ve noticed something about that state.
When I’m in it, I become more vulnerable to bad habits.
When Energy Turns Careless
After one football session, I was riding that high. Instead of going home, I walked around the city at night. I texted a girl and asked if she wanted to join me. She did.
We walked from 9 p.m. until midnight before going back to her place. I stayed the night.
At the start, it was simply excess energy — wanting connection, wanting to share that feeling. But instead of ending the night after an hour or two, I prolonged it. I crossed a line I knew I shouldn’t. I was aware of it even as it was happening.
The result: terrible sleep, a wasted following day, agitation, and frustration with myself for my lack of self-control.
That’s the real cost.
Observing the City
I’ve spent a lot of time travelling on the metro, trams, and buses. I enjoy watching people — how they interact, how they carry themselves. I find it fascinating to observe and form theories about their lives, their habits, their stories.
It’s striking how many people are completely disconnected — headphones in, eyes glued to their phones, the world passing by unnoticed.
It makes you wonder what we’re missing.
Confidence & Discipline
This week reminded me of something simple but powerful:
Confidence doesn’t come from hype.
It comes from integrity.
When I do the things I say I will do — and say no to the things I said I wouldn’t — I feel a different kind of strength. It compounds. Every small “no” to destructive behaviour builds momentum. Every disciplined choice reinforces identity.
The Bible captures this principle clearly:
Those who have will be given more, and those who have little will have even what they have taken away.
Discipline compounds. So does indulgence.
Faith
Although this was, overall, a poor week in terms of productivity and self-control, I did go to church. I spoke to God.
It restored something in me that I didn’t expect.
When people ask why I’m a Christian, why I believe in Jesus, I struggle to summarise it. The closest explanation I can give is this:
It fulfills me.
Nothing comes close to the clarity and peace I feel when my focus is aligned there.
That’s where my attention needs to remain.